Gay Marriage

Time stamp - 9:30am and I am already bitter and angry, why? Because gays cannot be legally wed. The more I think about this issue, the angrier I get because, simply put, it is just not fair.

I started out not really caring about the same-sex marriage issue because to me, growing up in a tumultuous family, marriage is nothing more than a business transaction. I have always thought if the love is there, why get married? But now I sing a different tune and march to a different beat. I believe in marriage, any marriage, straight, bi, gay, whatever, I believe in it and I want to take the next step to the next level, but I can't. And why? Because gays can't get married officially.

I truly don't give two shits and a flying fuck about the piece of paper saying that we're married, BUT I do want to have a legal ceremony and have all the benefits automatically awarded to married couples; I want to be able to visit my boyfriend/finacee in the hospital without having to previously sign a costly Power of Attorney; I want to be able to have kids without going through a pricey joint-custody procedure. I want to be able to do all of this stuff without having to dull out more cash to Uncle Sam who does jack-shit to secure our welfare just because we're "different".

Jonathan and I have been together for a little over three and a half years and we were engaged this past January. After ten months of being engaged, I want to be married. Technically, we could get married, but that is all in our heads; only we will be able to acknowlegde the legitimacy of the marriage, nobody else....

I'm just frustrated and I'm angry. Everywhere I turn, every fuckin' hickass Tom, redneck Dick, and prostitute Sally are getting married; everyone, but us. It is just upsetting.

I guess all we can do is wait, which is, sometimes, a terrible thing.